The movie Miss Congeniality had a line that was used over and over again as the “right” answer for the important question… “world peace”. I loved that movie, and again, that is one I have seen many times. When we look for peace, do we know really what we are looking for? There are times in our lives that we sit and gaze out over whatever scenery catches our attention and sense an inner peace, solitude and awe. What is that?
We live in a world that is in a shambles. Life is busy, and with technology at every turn our minds are continually being stimulated leaving very little room for rest or peace. Our lives are full of activities that keep us on our toes, stressed, worried, and so busy that we even remove the peace from someone else by reacting in a harsh way. There goes peace right?
Then of course, there are wars and protests, shootings and so much more in life that robs peace from those affected by the event and those hit by the impact of the headlines. At times I have to take a hiatus from hearing or reading news stories. I struggle if that is being selfish, or just self preservation. Media often times paints a story and is filled with partial truths, so is it worth even taking that information in? News, it is a peace robber at times isn’t it?
Over these past weeks with Ashley in hospital I have struggled with finding moments of peace. I am not talking about the quiet room or ocean scene type of peace, but I am talking more of the inner peace that brings relief to a weary heart. Today I was thinking about a verse I remembered part of and had to go looking for it. These are the words of Jesus….
“These things I have spoken to you while I am still with you.But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you.Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. You heard me say to you, ‘I am going away, and I will come to you.’ If you loved me, you would have rejoiced, because I am going to the Father, for the Father is greater than IAnd now I have told you before it takes place, so that when it does take place you may believe.I will no longer talk much with you, for the ruler of this world is coming. He has no claim on me, but I do as the Father has commanded me, so that the world may know that I love the Father. Rise, let us go from here.” John 14:25-30
See it? Jesus knew that the disciples were going to be afraid when they would see what He already knew was going to happen in His crucifixion. He made sure that they knew He was leaving the peace that could only come from Him. His Peace. He told them that it wasn’t the same kind of peace that we know here in this world. It was the peace that could give us assurance that we don’t need to have our hearts troubled or afraid. That hit me pretty hard tonight.
I am not going to say that I have been riding the waves of blissful peace through this time, I would be lying. I have cried, sobbed actually, and worried, oh my goodness worried. I have prayed, pleading for speedy healing and peace in and through this time. And at times, and I am being honest…. I have felt a true absence of peace. Why? Is God holding out on me? Have I done something wrong so that God won’t listen to my prayers? The answer to both of those is no, .. God is not holding out on my prayers and the prayers of hundreds of others that are praying for Ashley’s speedy healing. He is at work, in His way. The disciples would not have had a clue that the crucifixion that Jesus would go through would be the means that the Father would use to bring reconciliation between us and Him. To bridge the gap that sin causes took the horrible death and resurrection of Christ for us. That was love and a means to bring true peace.
Tonight I sit here and search my heart asking Jesus how do I let go of my worries in order to find the peace that He gives, that He left for us. How do I not be troubled and worried and stressed after all, thats my girl! It comes down to this… I am not capable of this peace on my own. It is something that He gives in doses and gives when I open my heart to release my fear to allow that peace to come in. The storms of life will always present fear, stress, anger and questions. When Ashley gets home and is reunited with her kids and husband in their home, it will be a time of reflection. God is using her in the lives of those she is in contact with. This time is not wasted for her, nor will it be wasted for Corey, the girls or the rest of our wee family. Jesus takes the hard in life and teaches and loves through it all.
I take great joy in knowing the peace comes through drawing close to Him in prayer and time in my bible.
May you find peace in your storm and that it may be found in Christ.
Love Hugs n Prayers