Isn’t it funny, when you are a kid you can’t wait to get older, then time ticks on and you are all of a sudden 50 and you wish you could be a kid again. I am way beyond 50 now.. I won’t say how way beyond, but let’s just say 70 is on the horizon.
I can remember when I was about 10 years old thinking anyone at the age of 70 was ancient. They had to just fall over because how could legs hold a body that is that old. I look down and my legs are still working, not like they used to mind you.
My Mom and Dad are now in their late 90’s. Watching the process of age in them has been a stark reminder that life is fleeting. I was reading a post today from a lady who is soon going to have to say a final “good night” to her wee son. Where is balance in life? Whether old, or young life is precious. Not only to someone just starting in life, but to one who’s eyes are weak and who’s body delivered a blow in a stroke. I see the struggles of my parents and my heart breaks because I have seen their lives vibrant and busy. For the Mom having to prepare a funeral for such a young son, she hangs on to each breath that he has ever taken because she has seen him play and has felt the warmth of him in her arms. I don’t have an explanation for her why his life is fleeting so young and my parents still going in their 90’s. Tonight, my heart struggles and yet stands in amazement. Our lives are so precious to the one who I believe created us, so much so that He knows every moment of our development in our mother’s womb.
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.”
He knows us and everything about us! He created us to be with Him, then sin stepped in. What a mess it made!!! Life that was full and pure was now corrupt and on a path to destruction… just take a look at history from the garden of Eden to today. Have you read the papers lately! He wanted us to be with Him so much that He wasn’t going to let sin stand in the way. He wasn’t going to let us just fall victim to our mistakes and royal mess ups! He created a way for this life to extend into a future that held in its grip… eternity. He gave of His own Son. It is the purest form of love.
As I walk this journey with my parents, and pray for the family of this little boy my heart is in a state of overwhelm. I long to make things easier on Mom and Dad and I long to be able to find a rescue for the little boy so he doesn’t have to leave his parents. I am powerless. But, my hope is in the one that created all of us. He is all power, all strength and because of His loving us to much that He gave of His Son, we can have assured hope. Hope that with an open heart of reaching for forgiveness for our part in sin, and finding the forgiveness is there .. we just need to accept it. As people we don’t accept things free so often, we think there has to be a catch. No catch here, just a Heavenly Father giving free love, why? Because He wants us to spend eternity with Him.
My physical struggles after our accident continue to take a toll on my body. My aging stuff that happens just because we are getting older presents its challenges. As I walk this time with a heart heavy of contemplation, I also walk in the shadow of the Almighty God who is here .. walking each day, each step at my side. Creeky bones, wrinkles, and the such will one day be transformed into a heavenly body… new and ready for an eternity in the presence of Jesus, my Lord and Saviour.
“How precious is your steadfast love, O God! The children of mankind take refuge in the shadow of your wings.” Psalm 36:7
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