A Mother’s Heart – Weeds, May Ponderings

“April showers bring May flowers”  The gardens are all one by one coming to life, the work in the garden prior to our accident in June and for years prior shows true in what comes back every year.   Darwin has been caring for the yard alone since October and as always is my knight…

Mother’s Heart: Feeling with no name (ponderings)

I sit and watch the goings on at the street level below the 10thfloor.  One of the things that I like to see on a rainy day is the many umbrellas that come out.   The morning might have started off sunny, but then the rain showers come and the umbrellas come out.  I love all…

Abuse: Forgiveness comes at a cost

I was told years ago that one of the reasons that I was having trouble getting through a difficult time in my life was because I didn’t forgive myself.   I looked at the one doing the counselling and said “excuse, forgive myself, what are you saying?” I had been abused in prior years and…

Praying for Humbolt Broncos

Overwhelmed, that is about where my thoughts are.  Tormented for the families of a hockey team, Humbolt Broncos that has faced the ultimate pain in life, loss of life.  And life changing loss of life as it was for those that survived.   I have no answers.  No suggestions why things happen, either for us…

A Mother’s Heart (Pt 4 – ponderings)

Being a Mom is one of the treasures of this life that can be compared to nothing else.   I adore my husband and would stand before a freight train for him.   I love my children and would derail a train for them to do whatever I could to protect them. I always thought…

White Buckled Shoes & Easter (ponderings)

  My birthday is in the fall and was a very long time ago!   (Let’s just say dial phones and black and white TV, yup, that is a long time ago!)   I have another birthday that creates a birthday celebration in my life,   Easter. As I grew up my Mom would tell…

Politics, Religion – Decisions

One of the things I was not prepared for in growing from a kid to an adult was the big decisions that would become part of my life, and not just my parents choice but would now be mine.   Politics is one of them.  Being 60 something it means I have been voting for…

A Mother’s Heart (Pt 3 Ponderings)

I can remember the day that I walked into Chilliwack Hospital for my very first ultrasound as a newly pregnant Mom to  meet my new baby  – Ashley.   Now this was over 30+ years ago and ultrasounds were not then what they are today.   I can’t believe how much detail there is in…

Depression, stop judging!

I have had a few people say over the past few months “you must be getting so depressed”.    Indeed we have had a lot going on with our family, and the challenges continue, but depression isn’t a word I use lightly, and actually no one should.  For us right now life is not even…

Please put my hedge back!!

I love gardening,  ……..  yes, I have said it before and there is a sure fire guarantee that I am going to say it again.  My ultimate favourite love in my garden is roses.  Any color, any size, fragrant or not, they are all wonderful!!!   I have quite a few rose bushes in my…

Life that feels like it makes no sense!

PAIN:  physical, mental, emotional and even spiritual, are all different but hit the same spot the hardest, our heart.  I am not talking about the heart that keeps us alive, all though, stress can cause grief there too!.  I am talking about the heart within us that we make decisions from, that feels the ache…

A Mother’s Heart pt3 “Anchor not a tow rope”

Ashley’s third surgery was done last week and now we wait on more healing to take place (She will have an update when she is up to it to get specific details)  We are so thankful for faithful prayers and friendship from family and friends. This last while I have been drawn to think of…

Wars within

War is something that I have never been able to grasp because of the huge loss of life.   My logical brain understands that there are powers that are within the world that have reeked havoc in the world and the only way to bring peace was through war.    World War II is one…

Why Even Pray!

So why even pray when the world seems so out of control?  Where is God in all of this mess?   Why do things happen and why doesn’t He stop it all and peace be over everyone?  In the past four months I have had to really evaluate my thoughts on prayer.   Ashley has been…

What is going on!!!

Right now through this time of life there is a lot of stuff that is driving me crazy!  Everything that is happening to Ashley and how this has affected us all as a family and continually wonder, “Is this really happening!?”  There are days I wake up and wonder  how did we get here and…

A Mother’s Heart Pt 2 – (pondering)

“All because two fell in love” has a different meaning right now.   Today is Valentine’s Day and as you already know Darwin is the love of my life, my valentine.  We fell in love, got married, had a beautiful daughter, had a handsome son.   They grew up to be two amazing adults who…

Control – I like details!

One of the things that I dislike is not knowing all the details.  For instance.   When I am going to go on a trip I like to know a few things.  1) Where are we going?  2) What should I wear? 3) What time do we need to leave?  4) Who is going to…

Where are your stones?

One of the fun day trips we made on our motorcycle a couple of years ago was to Stave Falls Dam. It was a warm summer day and we decided we had never been there, (or at least as far as we could remember), and that day was the right day to make that trip….

Parting the River of Anguish

Rivers fascinate me and always have.   Nanaimo River was a place that in my teens a bunch of us would head off for an afternoon.  For those that could swim they loved the pools of clear, fresh water.   They would swim, splash and be silly all the while staying afloat.  It amazed me…