Not only a cleaning lady – (ponderings)

During the time Ashley has been in hospital it has amazed me at how many people are admitted and then very soon others discharged. Each time they are discharged cleaning staff has a major clean to do in that room.  Detailed, time consuming and all within a designated timeline. There is one particular cleaning lady…

Mother’s Heart : Blessings update (ponderings)

Another week has passed, or shall I say another switch day is done.   Each Tuesday I make my trek home after four nights in the hospital with Ashley.   We are in month 7, and as I write this I am once again brought to the question ” how did we get here!”  There…

What do you do with “how are you today”?

When you are asked “How are you today?” how do you answer?   Is your answer one of the following:  I am fine thanks Doing great, how are you? or do you answer like this: I have had a rough day but I am working through it. I feel really bad today, might be a…

Abuse: Forgiveness comes at a cost

I was told years ago that one of the reasons that I was having trouble getting through a difficult time in my life was because I didn’t forgive myself.   I looked at the one doing the counselling and said “excuse, forgive myself, what are you saying?” I had been abused in prior years and…

When are tears ok?

Tonight I am thinking about tears, ok so not just thinking about them, I am using them.   They run like a silent stream in the dark.  Hiding them from everyone is hard these days, but they are there and often buried. God created us with tear ducts.   I don’t know all the medical…

Praying for Humbolt Broncos

Overwhelmed, that is about where my thoughts are.  Tormented for the families of a hockey team, Humbolt Broncos that has faced the ultimate pain in life, loss of life.  And life changing loss of life as it was for those that survived.   I have no answers.  No suggestions why things happen, either for us…

Mother’s Heart (Easter Ponderings)

I have been working hard at trying to just count my blessings (instead of sheep).  It was Easter Sunday today and well, it is another holiday that has come and gone that Ashley has been in  hospital and that we have all walked through as a family.  Today counting blessings was hard and yet they…

A Mother’s Heart (Pt 4 – ponderings)

Being a Mom is one of the treasures of this life that can be compared to nothing else.   I adore my husband and would stand before a freight train for him.   I love my children and would derail a train for them to do whatever I could to protect them. I always thought…

White Buckled Shoes & Easter (ponderings)

  My birthday is in the fall and was a very long time ago!   (Let’s just say dial phones and black and white TV, yup, that is a long time ago!)   I have another birthday that creates a birthday celebration in my life,   Easter. As I grew up my Mom would tell…

Politics, Religion – Decisions

One of the things I was not prepared for in growing from a kid to an adult was the big decisions that would become part of my life, and not just my parents choice but would now be mine.   Politics is one of them.  Being 60 something it means I have been voting for…